ciircee: (Default)
2012-11-30 10:17 pm

So that's happening.

Last night Ed and I talked. In part because y'all are awesome. But mostly because I couldn't stop pushing.

No, there is nobody else. I knew this before and it's not something I've doubted.

But last night he admitted that he didn't want to hurt me or the kids--didn't want to do this but it's something he needs. He knew pretty much when he brought the idea up that it was going to end in divorce. I'll probably be mad at him later but for now I'm not. Ed's messed up inside and he truly wasn't sure what was going to hurt more.

So. For now, nothing much is going to change. There's a lot for us to sort through and to do to make this easier on the kids. We're not going to rush this. This is not an acrimonious divorce. There is still a great deal of care. So, going forward with the knowledge of what is and what isn't and making plans with input from the kids. We'll get through it. Ironically, we'll get through divorce together.

Telling the kids was the worst thing I've ever done.
ciircee: (Default)
2012-11-29 10:05 am

Real Life Update

No matter how much I stay away from the internet, coming back in fits and starts, things aren't easier to deal with. And I figured that some of you are actually interested so. Update.

I feel I should make a 'the first cut is the deepest' joke here. )
ciircee: (Default)
2012-09-06 10:48 am

LJ has the poll! And this is Finding Nino fic.

RL Update: Things are not at all better. I'm not sure if this feels unreal or unavoidable now.

I meant to post all of this here yesterday but forgot about it once I got the poll up on LJ. So. If you'd like, there is an lj poll regarding Inception big-bang ideas right here. I could use ideas and/or working brains to do thinking for me.


And now, because I like to package asking you for things with fic, a bit of Finding Nino. This is for Leader, who once said she wanted to see Nino give in.

Let's see if I remember how to do this... )
ciircee: (Very good you get a fish)
2012-08-23 06:47 pm
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Glee fic. I don't even, you guys.

I still don't watch Glee. I had this idea right around the time I wrote my first (and only other) fic for Glee. I wrote a handful of scenes and then found out that the show went a totally different direction, so I just left it. I have a very hard time ignoring canon. I figured I'd eventually post it as dead fic.

Instead my life has been kind of shit. And by kind of I mean 'really' and I miss the hell out of everybody but I just can't. I know I can and that means the world to me. Just like before I've printed out the things everybody has said to me during this blackout time and they're up on the wall, a touchstone. I literally touch them before I leave my room, every time, every day. You guys are a lifeline, a saving grace, a joy.

Which has not a lot to do with why I finished this fic. And also everything to do with it. I don't know. I wanted to write but I couldn't start something new, so finishing something old and screwing where the show decided to go happened instead. Should I tell you this deals with Karofsky and Kurt? It's mostly a Karofsky fic, though.

I'm considering turning off comments so if that happens, it's just because I'm kind of easily overwhelmed right now.

Also: Un-beta'd. Completely. And I finished it and posted it. If it were a baby it'd be covered in birthing goo and stuff. Yeah, mental images. Sorry.

Nothing in life will ever come that easy; doesn't mean it has to be that hard. )
ciircee: (Kick!)
2012-07-31 10:33 am

Every Little Thing (i_reversebang post)

Title: Every Little Thing
Fandom: Inception
Pairing: Arthur/Eames
Word Count: 7,196
Rating: PG
Notes: Written as part of i_reversebang.
Summary: Arthur is a giant purple squid-monster (with great hair) and Eames really couldn't care less. Because he is Arthur.

Art:[I luv U lots] by [chibifukurou] YOU MUST SEE THIS.

Author's Notes: Thank you to my artist for such a fun and inspiring piece to write by! Arthur. As a squid-monster. I'm not going to lie: it's my desktop background right now. Thanks as well to my beta-team.

Also available at Ao3 and livejournal.

Every Little Thing )
ciircee: (my friends)
2012-07-30 09:01 pm
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Avengers fic?

This took me so long to write. It was harder than it should have been. But at least I wrote something!

I like to mix-and-match. )
ciircee: (The architect)
2012-07-20 09:53 pm
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In Somnis Veritas (i_reversebang post)

Title:In Somnis Veritas
Fandom: Inception
Pairing: Ariadne/Yusuf (with hints of Arthur/Eames if you squint?)
Word Count: 8,676
Rating/Warnings: PG

Summary: Once the distracting business of incepting Fischer passes, Ariadne's excited to talk dream theory to someone who will listen. In discovering dreams, she also discovers something real.

Art: [Curious Minds] by [chibi_lurrel]. It is lovely and bright and I demand you go tell her so!

Notes: Thank you to my artist Chibi_Lurrel above and beyond all others. She is amazing and you should tell her so. And thank you to my betas (C for the real life look over and H for the internet eyes) for making me do better. Thank you, too, to the mods who let me have extra time when real life collapsed around me
This has been a wonderful experience, all things aside, and I'm grateful to all of you.

Written as part of i_reversebang.

Also at Ao3 and livejournal.

In dreams, there is truth )
ciircee: (Kick!)
2012-07-20 09:26 pm
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Higher Emotions Are Out To Get Us MASTER POST

Title:Higher Emotions Are Out To Get Us (and we soldier on, together)
Author: [profile] still_ciircee
Fandom: Inception
Pairing: Arthur/Eames
Word Count: 33,413
Rating/Warnings: R

Summary: A typical 'boy meets boy' story about building a relationship, making it work, and having it last. Only it's Arthur and Eames so…yeah

Mix: [Untitled] (or 'and we soldier on, together') by [ctrl_issue]

Notes: A heartfelt and awe-inspired thank you to my mixer above and beyond all. Thank you. Thank you for this experience. It has been so amazing. A no-less heartfelt thank you to my betas; it means more than I can say to have your eyes and thoughts. Finally: Love to the_suit_case for being there and for getting me into this.

Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four

Full work on AO3

(Written as part of the Bigbang_Mixup. Sorry about the spam, f-list!)
ciircee: (super star)
2012-03-28 06:58 pm

Random thought, This Means War fic and a bit of RPG noodling

Randomly: You know what the internet needs? A random sexual-action generator. Like a title generator only it spits out a sexual act or position instead of a title. TELL ME I'M WRONG.

In other news, I am in a total writing slump as many of you know. Sometimes I will hit you up for things—songs or words or lines or images—in an effort to use you for inspiration or motivation.

Tonight's victim was one of my favorite men, [personal profile] bamcycle. Probably not used the way you expected, but thank you. ♥


This Means War fic. That is not porn, sorry. )


Aaaand a short bit that is actually RPG based! )
ciircee: (bought the airline)
2012-03-21 05:19 pm

Crossover fic. For movies nobody has seen? (Icon oddly half appropriate)

(DW: Sorry if you got spammed. I imported the more recent stuff without thinking about what that might do to you. ILU?)

So I watched both Warrior and 50/50 recently.

And as I watched Warrior the other night I thought 'shit, you know what would be awesome? CROSSOVER'. So, um. I wrote this.

This has nothing to do with my feelings for Inception and has so very little to do with shipping Arthur/Eames. I just watched both movies and I thought 'you know what? Tommy and Adam would get each other'.

Blame the lack of sleep. I was up all night stabbing my BigBang. I slept for two hours, did some yard work, did some housework, and then spent about four hours on this.

I KNOW, DUDES. I DON'T EVEN.

Anyhow, if you want to read this there are spoilers for both movies in the fic. You could always, if you were curious and don't care, read it anyhow. Basics? 50/50: Adam's life is pretty good despite having a bit of a messed up family but then he discovers he has cancer and has a fifty-fifty shot of living. Cue living with it and fighting it. Warrior: Tommy's family is messed up and there are cage fights, he has to face his own brother. Cue punching and trying to make things right.

(Seriously? They're both really good movies and watching them is a good thing. Both Tom and Joe are actors I will watch in anything and they've got some quality stuff to work with in their respective films.)

Seriously, BIG spoilers for both movies in here. )
ciircee: (Can't brain today)
2012-03-15 02:09 pm
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Do I want to write porn? Also, last year's links and fic-in-half-an-hour

The short answer is no. The longer answer is: I probably should add the porn to my [livejournal.com profile] bigbang_mixup. I hate writing porn. ;__;


Normally I do a link roundup of comment fics at the beginning of the year. I ralphed on Taiyou and that didn't happen. But hey, Mycroft here is willing to work with me!

A slow year, spam-wise )

My favorite fic (of my own) from last year is undoubtedly French Revolution. I enjoyed the hell out of writing it and, in glancing back at it, I'm still satisfied with it.

Erm. Now have some 'This Means War' fic. SHUT UP, DUDES, I ALREADY KNOW.

This means Bangladesh )
ciircee: (Misono laughing)
2012-03-14 03:58 pm
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Sherlock dudes on the flist!

THIS.

Gone now.

That is all.

For now at least.
ciircee: (Smile Toothless)
2012-03-07 12:16 pm
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Yet among the living!

Guess who knows somebody who threw up on their laptop and ruined the ever-loving crap out of it! Guess!

(It's all of you reading this. Because I did that.)

(Spoiler alert!)

(Oh...I did that wrong.)

Yes, I threw up on Taiyo. Just days after my birthday my whole family--hell, my whole TOWN--got sick. There were several hospital trips for dehydration and the sheer inability to hold down, or in, any sort of water (let alone any kind of food). It was a sudden-onset thing and so I actually threw up on my laptop with very little warning that it could or might happen.

He died.

So that's where I've been--waiting for Ed to build me a new laptop. (Long story short: I can't use any of the other computers here for various reasons.) I know that the kids posted it on FB a while back but not everybody is friends with the childrens. Sorry if anybody was worried! Thank you for trying to check in on me!

This is just a quick note, btw. I have writing yet to do for [livejournal.com profile] bigbang_mixup. I was doing it longhand in a notebook and my wrist is killing me.

(PS. If anybody wants to beta Inception fic, I would let you. I might cry because it's a totally new fandom to me and I haven't actually explored it due to LACK OF INTERNET but I would actually appreciate it.)

I ♥ ALL OF YOU.
ciircee: (LOVE)
2011-12-14 10:14 am

Yay, Christmas! And OTHER/NON-HOLIDAYS TOO.

Wow, I'm super late in getting in on this! BUT! If you want me to send you a card, drop your address into the (screened!) comments. Eventually a card from me will turn up in your mailbox...exciting, right?

IF you left me your address in years prior I will use that address so if it's changed, let me know. If you DO NOT want one, let me know that too!

AND IF YOU ARE NOT CELEBRATING CHRISTMAS: I will send you an appropriate holiday-of-your-choice card. OR I will send you a random card just to say hello and that I'm thinking of you if you have no holiday at this time.

Thinking on that...if you don't celebrate December holidays but have a big holiday at another time for which you'd like a card, let me know what and when!


As I'm waiting for an oil change I am not going to post any fic with this. Instead, have some holiday music fresh from Korea (S.M. Entertainment in particular).


(I love you, Luna~~!)

My new desktop )
ciircee: (Default)
2011-12-01 03:38 pm
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Rarepair bingo: YamaPair

Title: Teach your language to me
Rated: PG-13
Warning: Not really?
Pairing: Ohno/Sho
Prompt: English lesson
Summary: Me love you long time. Or something. Just take your damn pants off.

Is it rainy or sunny? Um…yes? )
ciircee: (Default)
2011-11-27 09:46 pm
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kids making me post this



I love you, kids.

(Three more days of opening the store, three more nights of Faith closing it down and needing a ride. Sleep would be so nice.)