Circe's Nerd Journal

So that's happening.

Sat, 01 Dec 2012 04:23:55 GMT

Last night Ed and I talked. In part because y'all are awesome. But mostly because I couldn't stop pushing.

No, there is nobody else. I knew this before and it's not something I've doubted.

But last night he admitted that he didn't want to hurt me or the kids--didn't want to do this but it's something he needs. He knew pretty much when he brought the idea up that it was going to end in divorce. I'll probably be mad at him later but for now I'm not. Ed's messed up inside and he truly wasn't sure what was going to hurt more.

So. For now, nothing much is going to change. There's a lot for us to sort through and to do to make this easier on the kids. We're not going to rush this. This is not an acrimonious divorce. There is still a great deal of care. So, going forward with the knowledge of what is and what isn't and making plans with input from the kids. We'll get through it. Ironically, we'll get through divorce together.

Telling the kids was the worst thing I've ever done.

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Real Life Update

Thu, 29 Nov 2012 16:36:56 GMT

No matter how much I stay away from the internet, coming back in fits and starts, things aren't easier to deal with. And I figured that some of you are actually interested so. Update.

( I feel I should make a 'the first cut is the deepest' joke here. )

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LJ has the poll! And this is Finding Nino fic.

Thu, 06 Sep 2012 16:17:23 GMT

RL Update: Things are not at all better. I'm not sure if this feels unreal or unavoidable now.

I meant to post all of this here yesterday but forgot about it once I got the poll up on LJ. So. If you'd like, there is an lj poll regarding Inception big-bang ideas right here. I could use ideas and/or working brains to do thinking for me.

And now, because I like to package asking you for things with fic, a bit of Finding Nino. This is for Leader, who once said she wanted to see Nino give in.

( Let's see if I remember how to do this... )

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Glee fic. I don't even, you guys.

Thu, 23 Aug 2012 23:59:32 GMT

I still don't watch Glee. I had this idea right around the time I wrote my first (and only other) fic for Glee. I wrote a handful of scenes and then found out that the show went a totally different direction, so I just left it. I have a very hard time ignoring canon. I figured I'd eventually post it as dead fic.

Instead my life has been kind of shit. And by kind of I mean 'really' and I miss the hell out of everybody but I just can't. I know I can and that means the world to me. Just like before I've printed out the things everybody has said to me during this blackout time and they're up on the wall, a touchstone. I literally touch them before I leave my room, every time, every day. You guys are a lifeline, a saving grace, a joy.

Which has not a lot to do with why I finished this fic. And also everything to do with it. I don't know. I wanted to write but I couldn't start something new, so finishing something old and screwing where the show decided to go happened instead. Should I tell you this deals with Karofsky and Kurt? It's mostly a Karofsky fic, though.

I'm considering turning off comments so if that happens, it's just because I'm kind of easily overwhelmed right now.

Also: Un-beta'd. Completely. And I finished it and posted it. If it were a baby it'd be covered in birthing goo and stuff. Yeah, mental images. Sorry.

( Nothing in life will ever come that easy; doesn't mean it has to be that hard. )

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Every Little Thing (i_reversebang post)

Tue, 31 Jul 2012 15:35:59 GMT

Title: Every Little Thing
Fandom: Inception
Pairing: Arthur/Eames
Word Count: 7,196
Rating: PG
Notes: Written as part of i_reversebang.
Summary: Arthur is a giant purple squid-monster (with great hair) and Eames really couldn't care less. Because he is Arthur.

Art:[I luv U lots] by [chibifukurou] YOU MUST SEE THIS.

Author's Notes: Thank you to my artist for such a fun and inspiring piece to write by! Arthur. As a squid-monster. I'm not going to lie: it's my desktop background right now. Thanks as well to my beta-team.

Also available at Ao3 and livejournal.

( Every Little Thing )

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Avengers fic?

Tue, 31 Jul 2012 02:04:16 GMT

This took me so long to write. It was harder than it should have been. But at least I wrote something!

( I like to mix-and-match. )

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In Somnis Veritas (i_reversebang post)

Sat, 21 Jul 2012 03:03:49 GMT

Title:In Somnis Veritas
Fandom: Inception
Pairing: Ariadne/Yusuf (with hints of Arthur/Eames if you squint?)
Word Count: 8,676
Rating/Warnings: PG

Summary: Once the distracting business of incepting Fischer passes, Ariadne's excited to talk dream theory to someone who will listen. In discovering dreams, she also discovers something real.

Art: [Curious Minds] by [chibi_lurrel]. It is lovely and bright and I demand you go tell her so!

Notes: Thank you to my artist Chibi_Lurrel above and beyond all others. She is amazing and you should tell her so. And thank you to my betas (C for the real life look over and H for the internet eyes) for making me do better. Thank you, too, to the mods who let me have extra time when real life collapsed around me
This has been a wonderful experience, all things aside, and I'm grateful to all of you.

Written as part of i_reversebang.

Also at Ao3 and livejournal.

( In dreams, there is truth )

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Higher Emotions Are Out To Get Us MASTER POST

Sat, 21 Jul 2012 02:33:00 GMT

Title:Higher Emotions Are Out To Get Us (and we soldier on, together)
Author: still_ciircee
Fandom: Inception
Pairing: Arthur/Eames
Word Count: 33,413
Rating/Warnings: R

Summary: A typical 'boy meets boy' story about building a relationship, making it work, and having it last. Only it's Arthur and Eames so…yeah

Mix: [Untitled] (or 'and we soldier on, together') by [ctrl_issue]

Notes: A heartfelt and awe-inspired thank you to my mixer above and beyond all. Thank you. Thank you for this experience. It has been so amazing. A no-less heartfelt thank you to my betas; it means more than I can say to have your eyes and thoughts. Finally: Love to the_suit_case for being there and for getting me into this.

Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four

Full work on AO3

(Written as part of the Bigbang_Mixup. Sorry about the spam, f-list!)

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Higher Emotions Part 4

Sat, 21 Jul 2012 02:25:53 GMT

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3

( Part 4 )

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Higher Emotions Part 3

Sat, 21 Jul 2012 02:25:14 GMT

Part 1
Part 2

( Part 3 )

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Higher Emotions Part 2

Sat, 21 Jul 2012 02:23:43 GMT

Part 1

( Part 2 )

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Higher Emotions Part 1

Sat, 21 Jul 2012 02:22:59 GMT

( And we soldier on… )

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Random thought, This Means War fic and a bit of RPG noodling

Thu, 29 Mar 2012 03:43:46 GMT

Randomly: You know what the internet needs? A random sexual-action generator. Like a title generator only it spits out a sexual act or position instead of a title. TELL ME I'M WRONG.

In other news, I am in a total writing slump as many of you know. Sometimes I will hit you up for things—songs or words or lines or images—in an effort to use you for inspiration or motivation.

Tonight's victim was one of my favorite men, bamcycle. Probably not used the way you expected, but thank you. ♥

( This Means War fic. That is not porn, sorry. )

( Aaaand a short bit that is actually RPG based! )

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First post is first!

Thu, 11 Mar 2010 02:53:27 GMT

Joined uss_roselia. ♥ I applied online to join Starfleet Academy and with hope I'll get my stuff soon so I can apply for classes.

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