I really did want to write a different Ohno here (different from the one I usually write) where he is younger and he does make mistakes and stupid choices and things go WRONG for him. It was a hard fic to write in a lot of aspects because I really wasn't used to dealing with his headspace and bad things going on.
In my own head, after the press event, it gets easier for Ohno to care about Nanami and Amaya. They're no longer this dark and painful secret for him, not a threat hanging over his head--Nanami is back to being the girl who got caught and had to deal with this and Amaya is just an innocent kid who deserves the best he can give her (a-and he kind of considers her like he would a baby Nino, in some ways. Somebody from a fucked up home life that will possibly turn out all right).
And you noticed that I kept Arashi to the background for most of it! That was something else I'd wanted to try--writing an Arashi who wasn't constantly in each other's pockets, who maybe WERE working partners who were friends, too. They're something he always considers but this is his life and not just his work. But yes. Sho. Sho with babies. And it's a baby Ohno and Sho has a very tiny bit of jealousy in his soul for this.
You liked Nanami! I liked her a lot, too. She really is kind of young and stupid when it happens. She's in her late twenties and there's this thing that happens at that age where you look around and go 'wtf, where is my LIFE?' and you think you have to have all these things--a mortgage and a spouse and a child and a dog--and suddenly she was presented with these things. And--really? She fell in love with Ohno in the car when he asked if she wanted to get married and have the baby. Because he was still the sweet kid she remembered, the strong kid, and he was trying to protect her.
In some ways she didn't really know him but in my head she loved him just as much as if she did. Because she was protecting him, too, and dealing with everything so he wouldn't have to. His shut down at the hospital really hurt but she could understand, too. When he starts to visit regularly she realizes that it won't work--he's got something he loves that makes loving her and Amaya like THAT kind of impossible, she can see that he'd maybe LIKE to love them but he can't and she realizes that he's not what she really needs even if she does love him (and she still loves him even when she offers him the divorce) so she sets him free and he, in turn, sets all of them free.
They really do get along so much better afterwards--again, all in my own head canon--and she finds a guy who loves her and her baby and can accept her friend, Ohno Satoshi.
(Morioka really was making good-will visits with hush-money, but he also really felt for Nanami. SHE wasn't the idiot in this mess and she was a good woman--going to school and taking care of her baby and NOT BLABBING ABOUT IT. And she believed the best of him and his visits--that was nice for him, too.)
Long, rambly answer but I'm so happy with you and your comment that I couldn't help myself. You have no clue how happy you made me. Thank you for being so wonderful to me.
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Date: 2010-08-25 06:10 pm (UTC)Hi, I'll be more coherent now.
I really did want to write a different Ohno here (different from the one I usually write) where he is younger and he does make mistakes and stupid choices and things go WRONG for him. It was a hard fic to write in a lot of aspects because I really wasn't used to dealing with his headspace and bad things going on.
In my own head, after the press event, it gets easier for Ohno to care about Nanami and Amaya. They're no longer this dark and painful secret for him, not a threat hanging over his head--Nanami is back to being the girl who got caught and had to deal with this and Amaya is just an innocent kid who deserves the best he can give her (a-and he kind of considers her like he would a baby Nino, in some ways. Somebody from a fucked up home life that will possibly turn out all right).
And you noticed that I kept Arashi to the background for most of it! That was something else I'd wanted to try--writing an Arashi who wasn't constantly in each other's pockets, who maybe WERE working partners who were friends, too. They're something he always considers but this is his life and not just his work. But yes. Sho. Sho with babies. And it's a baby Ohno and Sho has a very tiny bit of jealousy in his soul for this.
You liked Nanami! I liked her a lot, too. She really is kind of young and stupid when it happens. She's in her late twenties and there's this thing that happens at that age where you look around and go 'wtf, where is my LIFE?' and you think you have to have all these things--a mortgage and a spouse and a child and a dog--and suddenly she was presented with these things. And--really? She fell in love with Ohno in the car when he asked if she wanted to get married and have the baby. Because he was still the sweet kid she remembered, the strong kid, and he was trying to protect her.
In some ways she didn't really know him but in my head she loved him just as much as if she did. Because she was protecting him, too, and dealing with everything so he wouldn't have to. His shut down at the hospital really hurt but she could understand, too. When he starts to visit regularly she realizes that it won't work--he's got something he loves that makes loving her and Amaya like THAT kind of impossible, she can see that he'd maybe LIKE to love them but he can't and she realizes that he's not what she really needs even if she does love him (and she still loves him even when she offers him the divorce) so she sets him free and he, in turn, sets all of them free.
They really do get along so much better afterwards--again, all in my own head canon--and she finds a guy who loves her and her baby and can accept her friend, Ohno Satoshi.
(Morioka really was making good-will visits with hush-money, but he also really felt for Nanami. SHE wasn't the idiot in this mess and she was a good woman--going to school and taking care of her baby and NOT BLABBING ABOUT IT. And she believed the best of him and his visits--that was nice for him, too.)
Long, rambly answer but I'm so happy with you and your comment that I couldn't help myself. You have no clue how happy you made me. Thank you for being so wonderful to me.