Happy birthday and some random stuff!

[ciircee]

Firstly: Happy birthday, Erin!

I posted a comment fic over at shoneenclub in celebration. Shoneenclub. I love that name. ♥

In other Arashi news: New single. I'm tempted but I'm not going to shell out for the limited edition until I know if I like both songs.

Random stuff: The contest at ohmiya. I have an entry for the drabble contest. I hope to have one for the short story contest, too. I would not object to any of you joining in. I AM JUST SAYIN'.

Also: The Road Trip AU. ♥♥♥ One day it shall be posted and that day shall be AWESOME.

Stripper Pole: I...I just can't post it when I'm so unhappy with the transition. It's written but I wrote it in two parts, the smut first and then the lead in. Hence my trouble joining them. I want to get it out of my head but I know that my 'i don't like it' is actually factual and not just my usual 'i don't like it' that I feel for my own work.

Finally: I have a fic rant.

I am really tempted to name names. I'm not going to but I am REALLY TEMPTED. Besides, you should be able to figure it out.

I don't mind OCs. I don't even mind Arashi marrying girls. I do mind if you create an OC for the sole purpose of getting yourself into your favorite's pants. MALE or female. PS. This includes killing off a character and replacing them with your OC. ESPECIALLY this. Especially this if you're trying to pretend that maybe your OC is the dead member. Jesus.

But far worse, in my opinion, is 'character' bashing. Look, if the best version of Ohno/Jun you can write involves making Nino a total jerk, Jun a total saint, and Ohno as uncaring about Nino's feelings because he loves Jun better, then you are NOT DOING YOUR PAIRING A FAVOR. You are saying Ohno/Jun can't work unless Nino is jerk.

It pisses me off that people would trash the very real love that every member of Arashi has for every other member.

But aside from that (and I say 'aside' but seriously, it's sort of rage inducing for me): When you base your fic off of 'this person is a jerk, therefore my favorite should have everything he wants' you are ignoring all the awesome about your pairing of choice. Let's go back to Ohno/Jun:

You know what is awesome about Ohno and Jun's relationship? Jun is gentle with Ohno in a way that he isn't with the others. Jun will whack at Ohno, sure, but he also touches him sweetly, taking his hand, putting his hands on his shoulders, leaning into him. You can see how much love and respect Jun has for Ohno and how much it means to him when Ohno approves of him. And Ohno talks about Jun and it's so...he respects him so much, he's so impressed with who Jun is, who he has become, and he's moved by Jun's warmth and gentleness. Plus he likes to fuck with him. Ohno fucks with Jun and totally gets away with it. He makes Jun laugh.

This is off the top of my head, too. I'm not a real fan of Ohno/Jun. There were times when Jun touching Ohno seemed to really get to Nino and I felt bad for Nino (obviously, Nino is a bit of a nutcase, and he makes up for his issues by inappropriately touching Jun on concert tours). I think that Ohno and Jun love each other but I think Jun had a point: They don't have a ton of stuff in common and they probably really WOULDN'T be friends if it hadn't been for Arashi. I think they would have NEEDED to be in Arashi (whereas, say, Nino and Sho would have got along no matter what) to come together. And despite all this I can write Ohno/Jun that doesn't involve making Nino a jerk and Jun the perfect man.

SO STOP IT. You'll make me utterly, utterly hate your pairing and I don't want to hate any Arashi/Arashi pairing.

PS. I don't object to Second-Generation Arashi but speaking as a woman with four kids whom I love and enjoy: YOU DON'T NEED A CHILD TO BE A REAL FAMILY/A PERFECT FAMILY. Wanting kids is one thing--Sho would want children no matter what his sexual orientation because that is who Sho is.


ETA: I feel like changing out icons but I hate looking for them. If you want to throw icons at me, please do.

ETA2: I just finally got into my e-mail. Do you know who is totally awesome? ZEL. a;lsdkfja;dfj OMG I LOVE HER FOREVER. I LOVE HER LIKE BURNING.

Comments

[salwaphoenix.livejournal.com]

well, i love juntoshi, most probably, my OTP
*but somehow sakumoto and junaiba and matsumiya always crawl themselves into my tiny lil brain*

the only reason why i read the fic, and read the sequel too, is because of the scarcity of juntoshi fics.
*and she's a good person herself ^^*

that said, i have to agree that to a certain extend, i do not agree with the idea, and i did tell her sometimes, as a feedback. i wish the sequel is more of a juntoshi rather than Arashi-get-together-again fic.

cuz i really love her for writing the longest juntoshi fic around, but i really do not want to not like her writing just because i don't like the idea *even when they're having sex >.<*

long comment O_O my 2nd comment to you in a day, after lurking for so many months XD you should write a juntoshi XD

[still-ciircee.livejournal.com]

I don't object to JunToshi--I have a hard time seeing them as 'married' as Ohmiya or even Sho/Nino. It's like Aiba/Ohno for me--they love each other but I can't quite parse 'in love'. S-seriously, Arashi named that album 5x5 for a reason. OT5.

As for the fic: I know what it's like to have a 'rare' pair that doesn't produce. At that point I usually end up writing my own but not everybody writes. And I'm sure the author is a sweet girl and a nice person. I just...I really hate the bashing. There are Ohmiya authors I won't touch with a ten foot pole because of the Jun bashing. It makes me RUN SCREAMING. I have spammed people with PMs about the horror of some of it (srsly? You're going to get Ohmiya together because Jun RAPES NINO? DIAF.).

A-and, I have written a little JunToshi. I drop fics all over LJ and never post them to my journal. THIS one was in a locked entry so, for the very first time ever, I am copying it to somewhere else.


Jun remembers—with an ache like an old wound, dull and shadowy—the time in his life when everything he felt hurt. He remembers all his rage, all his hopelessness, and all his fear. He remembers torturing himself with all of it, turning every bit of it over and over, touching the jagged-sharp edges. He remembers thinking it was all a mistake and you're nobody, that will never change and, most of all, they'll get sick of you and you'll NEVER belong, not with them, not with anybody.

He doesn't dwell on it anymore, rarely even thinks about it. But when it comes back, he doesn't finger the cutting blades. Instead he thinks about how Sho looked after him even when he told him not to, how Aiba relentlessly tried to cheer him up even when he growled. He thinks about how Nino used to provoke his rage and how he accepted it whenever Jun finally turned it loose on him. Mostly, he thinks about Ohno and how Ohno soothed him.

No matter what people expected from Jun, no matter what he demanded of himself, Ohno had never asked anything of him, never tried to make Jun respond to him. Ohno had simply been and had allowed Jun to creep under the umbrella of his calm and quiet care. Ohno had let him close despite all his prickles and, in turn, Ohno had been the only one he allowed to hold him.

"Why do they always want to use that footage?" Jun sighs, flipping through the notes for their upcoming interview. He understands the desire to of the hosts to go into the ten year history of Arashi, but he really doesn't need to see his teenaged angst again.

"Because they love me, and they want me to be happy," Nino tells him.

Jun flips him off with a smile.

Nino air-kisses at him and then wanders away to extract Aiba from a card trick gone horribly wrong.

Ohno comes to sit beside him, leaning heavy against his side as he peers at the papers in Jun's hands. Jun tilts them so that he can read them better and considers scolding him about his glasses. Ohno smiles at him. "Matsujun is calmer now," he says in his rumpled-soft voice.

"Hm?" Jun sort of doesn't want to talk about it.

But Ohno smiles at him again. "Matsujun is calm now," he repeats. He taps one long, elegant finger over Jun's heart. "Here," he says and then moves to touch Jun's forehead. "And here." His smile widens a little, warms a little. "It makes you happy."

Jun looks away, feeling a blush make its way lightly across his cheeks. "Yeah," he agrees so quiet that it's barely a breath. He lets himself lean against the way Ohno is leaning into him.

"I remember when you were like this," Ohno murmurs, taking the papers from Jun's hands.

Jun takes them back and tosses them on the table. "I was so horrible it's hard to forget."

Ohno shifts and Jun suddenly finds himself in a familiar place, tucked against Ohno, his head resting on Ohno's shoulder with a warm, warm hand running through his hair in long and gentle strokes. "You were my Jun-chan," Ohno says softly, with absolute conviction.

"Hm," Jun hums in agreement, relaxing and realizing only then that he's been a little tense, holding himself a little stiffly. He takes Ohno's free hand in his and breathes deeply and enjoys just being Jun-chan, finally just Jun.